I'm back

I have to get back on track. I have 2 months to lose at least 15 if not 20 before I see a hottie down south. I can't wait to see him, and so I really have to focus.

That's all a side point to the fact i have a marathon in 7 weeks. I'm really really scared about this one. I haven't ran in 3 weeks due to youth camp, work, youth camp, and just being all screwed up.

So tomorrow I'm getting back on track. I will run - not for distance - but at least for an hour and see where I am on the mile markers. I need to get back in sync with my life and this is the week to do it. I can do it!

So Kat, I'm back here - in case you check in. I'll be weighing on Monday to see where I am. I had a whoosh week so hopefully that helped, and I sort of started my eating plan again today. I need to be back on track!

Alrighty.

Here we go again.

First good news: I weighed in yesterday and I was at 159. YAY! I broke the 160 barrier! I'm so excited about that. It has probably helped me when I wanted to get up this morning to work out. Suh-weet.

Eats:
Breakfast: 4 egg whites (1 yolk), 2 pieces lite bread, Smart Balance spread
Snack: Whoppers (boo) and 1 string cheese
Lunch: 4 HB Egg whites (a little yolk), watermelon
Snack: Grapes
Dinner: Chicken Tostado at Incas - however this was primarily lettuce, cheese and tomato, shredded chicken and a very thin tortilla I didn't even realize was there. Ate half the plate and called it good. I probably could have finished it but I'm really glad I didn't. (Lunch tomorrow!)

Exercise:
Total Body 10-minute trainer
3 mile run, 37 minutes (1st mile: 10:38)

Mood: Fabulous! :)

Someday I'll figure this out

I need to get my eating better. I had pop tarts for breakfast the last two days. I didn't bring lunch today because I was supposed to go to lunch with Ronny and Mungie Boy but Ronny couldn't make it so MB, BB and I went to KFC of all places. I had cereal for supper tonight after a run/walk for 5.5 miles.

My eating sucks. I'm totally going grocery shopping tomorrow. I need to get some decent food in this place. ugh.

let's just say...

...It's been a bad week. I'm sorry I haven't checked in lately.

BUT, on the bright side, I did weigh in yesterday and I was 162.8 and today I weighed and I was 161.4. YAY! It's whoosh week so I'm hoping that by Monday I'll be down some more.

My eating hasn't been great; I've incorporated bread back into my life, but I did find a 40 calorie a slice Light Wheat Bread which makes me happy because I don't feel guilty when I eat it. And I added watermelon back into my eating plan which I'm totally not supposed to do but it's just too good not to. :)

I also got sucked into an infomercial and bought Tony Horton's 10 minute trainer. My plan is that even if I skip a run in the morning, which I really shouldn't do, I can at least do a 10 minute workout or two, and then maybe another at night. I'm going to start that tomorrow.

How are you doing?

Ugh

Not a good day. Today's run sucked.

I woke up at 4:45 with the first alarm, which I rapidly snoozed. Then my next alarm went off at 4:55, as it always does, loud and blaring and annoying. I got out of bed and snoozed it, checking the weather outside as I did. It was beautiful, of course. I crawled back into bed and when the snooze went off again at 5:04, as it always does, I got up and reset the alarm for 5:27 and headed back to bed, pulling the covers back over my head.

But then, my conscience got the best of me and I reminded myself that I'm not going to run at noon (there's no way in hell, I believe were my actual words to my self) and I drug my sorry ass out of bed and headed to the bathroom to pull my hair back and get ready.

I finally made it out to run but my whole body was yelling at me. I could taste the salt from my previous nights' sunflower seed splurge on my lips (could until at least 9:30, in fact) and my body would not stop yawning. I ended up only running about 1.5 and called it good.

SO then to celebrate, I had Taco Bell for lunch and Combos Pizza (those pretzel cheese disgusting things) for afternoon snack. Total junk food day.

Tomorrow will be better.

Note to self

Don't eat half a bag of "salted in the shell" sunflower seeds and 44 oz of soda one day and expect to have any kind of decent run the next.

Hello! Are you dumb?

Foodie

Such a foodie:
1 piece light wheat toast (40 cal) with light Smart Balance butter (1 TBSP 45 Cal) - 85 calories
4 HB Egg whites (apprx 70 Cal)
20 oz Crystal Lite Peach Tea (5 or 10 Cal)
Chicken breast (apprx 5 oz) with shredded cheese and salsa (calories? No idea)
1 donut (whoops)
12 oz Diet Rite with splenda
12 oz Diet Sunkist
20 oz Diet Coke
1 piece light wheat toast (40 cal) with Smart Balance Peanut Butter
½ Cup SB cereal with Skim milk
1 piece string cheese (70 cal)
Sunflower seeds – thousands
¾ cup Carb Smart Breyer's ice cream with SF chocolate syrup
12 oz Crystal Lite Peach Tea

Okay so I will completely and totally admit that eating bread this morning before running really helped and having a little bit throughout the day was nice. It helped me keep my energy up and keep going.

I'm going to bed early tonight so I can get up earlier tomorrow so I can run more. It's all a if:then equation. If I go to bed early, then I can run more tomorrow. If I run more tomorrow, then I'll get in shape faster and possibly lose more weight. craziness.

Starting off right?

Hey Kat,
Weighed in this morning: 166. Ugh! Probably back to where I started but I'm not going back on phase one. I need my carbs. I'm just going to be careful with how many and which ones I eat.

I ran this morning...once again sleeping with my workout clothes on. I feel pretty good about this run at least. I walked a lot less than I usually do and twice when I started to walk I made myself run to at least the next marker. So my first mile was 10:39.

Actually these were my numbers this morning:
1st mile: 10:39
Ran for 2 more minutes
Walked and watered for 1:30
Ran to 1/2 mile marker 4:39
Walked the crappy part of the trail: 2:30
Ran to next 1/2 mile marker (plus a little to make up for the crappy walk): 4:21
Walked 1 minute
Ran 2 hills: 1 minute
Walked 1:15
Ran down and up hill: 45 seconds
Cool Down: 3:15

Not bad. I need to see if I can lessen my watering time - or run a little bit more of the crappy part of the trail. I only walk this because it's really broken up and then angles 30 degrees like this: / so it's hard to run. I walk it mostly to keep from injuring myself.

Oh and I started the morning with a piece of toast with Smart Balance butter. That helped I think. Now I'm off to shower and eat some cereal. :) Talk to you more later!

OMG

Okay, I was going to write down everything I ate this weekend but as I go through it in my head it's just damn depressing. My stomach and colon were not happy with me at all, so much so that I freelaxed last night/this morning just so I could feel a little more normal.

Tomorrow I go back on the plan, however I will be incorporating a little bit of carbs. I need to be running hard and I need carbs for that. So I have light wheat bread for before my morning run and South Beach cereal for when I get back so I can replenish (this will go with my eggs as well).

I will weigh in tomorrow so I have a honest and good idea of where I am. I doubt i lost anything this week but miracles do happen. :)

Your oreos and beer from the 4th? Yeah, that was my yesterday and today, without the beer.

One more day

Eats:
pistachios for breakfast
Crystal Lite - 20oz
Subway Chicken Bacon and Ranch wrap (half of the tortilla)
Tea - half unsweetened/half raspberry
Some almonds and cashews for supper
Diet Rite with Splenda - one can
Chicken breast with cheese and salsa
3/4 cup low carb ice cream with SF chocolate

Uffda. I didn't eat or drink like I normally do all day. So I feel really dehydrated.

Exercise: Sadly, today would have been THE perfect day to workout. However, I dragged my butt out of bed at 4:55 and decided to go back to bed because I was so exhausted I could barely stand. I was supposed to run at noon today with a friend but they ditched me without so much as a phone call, so I went to lunch with another friend instead. And I was going to run this afternoon before I left to go home but things kept getting in the way. I suck.

Another day older and deeper in debt

Eats:
Lots of Crystal Lite Peach Tea before and after run this morning
4 HB Egg whites
1 CF Caramel candy
1 Diet Dr. Pepper
Beef Jerky stick
2 oz Pistachios
1 string cheese
Water with Fruit Punch CL
Half a chicken breast with cheese and salsa
More PT CL
The equivalent of 3 cookies – in cookie dough that is
¾ cup low carb ice cream with sugar free chocolate syrup
30 pistachios – which I'm just realizing I shouldn't have eaten since I already had some earlier today. Oh well.

Exercise: Ran 2.5 again this morning. First mile was great - 10:59:09 (I love when I can make an under 11 minute mile - no matter how barely under it is); I walked for 2:32 and then started up again. That was my downfall. Once I stop I have a hard time restarting, especially with the 70% humidity we had this morning. 2nd mile ended up around 12:30 (give or take) - first half mile was 5:30 but the second half was worse - attacked by geese and the mosiquito truck and lack of energy (more on this later). Ended up run/walking for 34:37 total. Not bad considering I had to literally drag myself out of bed. I lifted a little bit at 1230. I have a schedule from Keith from a year ago but some of the exercises I couldn't remember how to do. I did do some "Drive the Car" ab things that Jay had taught me years ago. Then went for a half-mile walk to stay loose before spending the afternoon sitting.

Eating: I'm really enjoying my hard boiled egg whites each morning, I will say. It's been quite lovely to get that protein in me right away. The bad thing is that I'm thinking I need to do something before I run...like a piece of toast or something, just to get me going. My energy really lacked on the second mile and part of that was because I had no fuel to burn - other than wieners from the night before which were seriously not tasting good this morning. But I hesitate to begin back on the bread thing because it truly is my downfall. It's funny with SB - people stress about the lack of potatoes and such, but I can totally go without potatoes. But bread? Hmmm. I do love whole wheat bread though. I should get a bread maker and get whole wheat flour. Then at least I'd know what was going in it and not feel quite so bad about eating it. Or maybe that's worse, I'm not sure. I did forget about lunch today until about 2:30. Then I remembered but wasn't sure how to pull it off since I worked out at noon and showered. Whoops. So I went to the store and picked up some cheese and processed meat and pistachios - not the best but at least it was something. Supper I ate what I should have eaten at lunch and it was okay. The bad thing was the Brian requested cookies for tomorrow and even offered to pay for the ingredients (which I had joked about at one point, but I haven't made cookies in so long that I'd feel bad taking his money). So I made cookies tonight and of course that means i have to try the dough. :) Whoops. I'll have to run extra tomorrow.

Overall:
I am enjoying the morning workouts even thought it's tough to get up in the morning. I've been wearing my running stuff to bed, sans socks and shoes, so all I have to do is get up, shoe up and go. It actually helps in so many ways – it saves time, it saves me from thinking about what to wear in the AM, and I have a harder time talking myself out of running when I'm already dressed. Believe me, I tried really hard this morning. And I do feel better once I'm out there. I don't like running alone so I've been carrying mace which is probably illegal, but I feel better when I'm alone. Of course I think I've seen a total of 3 people on the trails – and that's total for the last two days: 2 bikers and a walker – so I probably don't need it.

The list

Eats:
8 oz Water
8 oz Crystal Lite Peach Tea
4 HB Egg whites
20 oz Crystal Lite Sunrise Delight (2)
Chicken, cheese, veggie thing from last week
1 jell-o sugar free pudding cup (60 cal)
5 hotdogs without buns - basically, just the meat.*
One can, Diet Coke

Exercise:
5:15 - 5:50; 2.5 run/walk; time - too long approx 35 minutes (will wear better watch tomorrow)

So tonight I went to my nephew's birthday party. It was time for dinner and one of SIL's co-workers hands me a plate. *It had a hotdog, on a white bun, with chips on the side. Uffda. I said, "Oh, thanks. You didn't need to get me a plate!" She said it was fine and to enjoy. Ugh. SO I waited until she went outside, took the meat to eat and gave the chips to my mom. I couldn't do it. I so wanted those chips but I stood my ground. :) But then I got hungry and cake was served and I desperately needed something to distract me. So I had another wiener. Then another. Then another and yet another. Oh well. I'm full now.

Blech

Okay, so I have a confession to make. I weighed in on Saturday even though I said I wasn't going to. I was at 160, which made me really happy. But then I weighed in this morning, but I was back to 162. This did not make me happy. Grrr.

So I started reading the SB book again and discovered I wasn't supposed to have sugar free pudding. Whoops. And I learned about the nuts thing again. Shoot.

I'm feeling fat today. I don't like that. And when I feel fat I don't like to run. I SO should have run today - it's beautiful out and all I did was stay in and study. grrr.

Not having a good day.

Despite baseball...

Today was okay. I had eggs for breakfast and then pistachios. Of course I ate a bunch of them before finding a SB article that said I should only eat 30 a day because too many nuts can go against weight loss. Whoops and shit since this is usually all I eat.

Lisa invited me to the Canaries/Saints game which was awesome. I didn't eat during it and came home and had a little steak on the griddle grill again and then a little ice cream for dessert. Whoops again. Of course it's the low carb stuff so hopefully it won't work against me. Then I had some celery/PB later.

I think I'm doing okay. Tomorrow is weigh in day again. We'll see where I am.

A home day

I spent the day at home which is usually full of danger. Today wasn't great but wasn't bad either. I had a SB meal for lunch and some pistachios (this was more of a brunch really) and then I snacked on cheese and nuts for the afternoon. Tonight I had a chuck steak (I think) - red meat of some sort on my griddle grill. This worked great! I'm really excited to be able to grill again.

I did buy Breyers Low Carb ice cream. It has only 3 or 4 grams of sugar so I think I can get away with this. It's summer! I need ice cream! But I haven't opened it yet. Maybe tonight I'll have a little while I watch my movie.

Oh and I forgot to mention I did have a pop yesterday - diet dr. pepper. I broke down only because I was exhausted. It was okay and I don't think it really set me back. I haven't had a desire for it or diet coke since.

I think things are going okay. We'll see what happens Monday.

Trips make eating hard, yet easy

So yesterday we left for the northern woods and I missed breakfast. Not a good way to start. By the time we hit lunch at 1 I was starving. I almost went for a penne pasta with chicken but decided to stay strong. I did eat the apple on my apple walnut salad but I needed a little bit of sugar to keep going. I was already tired and we hadn't even started yet.

Dinner was divine. I had a petit filet mignon with green beans almondine and steamed veggies - which was basically zuccini, carrots and more green beans. Yum though. I actually felt full, which was interesting considering I had had two meals all day and a shit load of water.

Today was a little better in that I started my day with an omelet with cheese, broccoli, peppers and tomatoes. Lunch was bad - pistachios. I just wanted a hamburger so bad and I thought I better hold out just a little longer. Dinner I had scrambled eggs with cheese and jalepeno stuffed olives. Yummy.

This weekend will be tough since I'll be home and studying a lot. I like to snack when I study so I stay awake and alert. But I have some celery left and I need to go get some skim milk so I could pick up more.

I miss popcorn. I love popcorn. I miss it.

I haven't weighed since Monday. I used to weigh every day, then twice a week and my former neighbor - known as A1 on this and other blogs in my world - was a doctor and she had done weight watchers or SB, I can't remember, and she made me swear I wouldn't weigh more than once a week. So Monday AM I'll weigh again and see where I am. Hopefully I'll have dropped a few. I'd love to get below 160 this week or next. It's only 3 pounds so I'm hoping that'll happen. I think I'll feel a little more positive about all this if I can get in the 150's, even if they are high. :)

Another day down

Today was okay, other than I missed breakfast. So I had celery and PB around 9 and then ate lunch at 11:30 which I hardly ever do. Lunch was my chicken and veggie thing with cheese and then jell-o pudding. For the afternoon I didn't really snack, if I remember right. So tonight when I got home I was starving. I had chicken thing again (the joys of mass producing food for the week) and a bunch of Nutrition nuts from Planters and a few SF Red Vines.

I feel like I had something else but I can't remember. Oh well. I drank a lot of crystal lite again and am now enjoying SF chocolate Skim milk. mmmm...

Bad thing - I didn't get up this morning again for running. I blame my friend Jason for one - for calling after 10 two nights in a row, and I blame the lack of carbs. I really need some extra energy.

Of course I chatted with K today and found out that next weekend, over the 4th, will be full of sugar and fun. Hmmm...that'll be interesting coming off of these last two weeks.

Back to basics

So yesterday afternoon I was skimming through my original SB posts back in August 2005. I used to list all the food I had eaten. Some of these, if you decide to read them, are a little off mostly because these used to be on my main blog and then I realized people probably didn't want to read about this all the time so I started the second blog and then copied and pasted all the entries and adjusted time and date so they'd be accurate. It's worked and my other blog is just for other stuff as this one is just for my fattiness.

But, like I said, I used to list all the food I ate. It was a little nerve-wracking because then I had to be accountable for what I was eating each day, knowing that I would be posting it later for people read.

So here you go: my meals for Today, beginning of week 2 of Phase I
Egg whites for breakfast (4). I don't like the yolk so I only eat the whites. I also had a Sunrise Delight Crystal Lite and then a Peach Tea to follow it up. For snack I had pistachios (yum!) and string cheese (this was first and then the nuts to get the cheese taste out of my mouth). For lunch I had a salad - lettuce, chicken (which tasted funny - I hope it was the seasoning and that I don't get sick), some cheese and cucumbers - with OG dressing and SF Jell-o Pudding for dessert. I had some more pistachios this afternoon for a snack and then had a SB Meal (Kung Pao Chicken) for dinner. It's for phase 1 which makes me happy, but has way less veggies than it used to, which does not make me happy. I also had some SF Red Vines. Overall I've drank a lot of liquid today.

Oh and I did try the griddle grill last night and I think it would work better with steak than chicken since it's for searing not cooking clear through. I guess I'll have to get me some steak. :) I like that on the grill better anyway. Chicken is great baked and all the recipes I have can work in the oven. I just don't like using the oven in summer if I don't have to.

Much better

After the Subway fiasco, my day went much better. I had some celery and PB for an afternoon snack and made my chicken for the week, while also making a salad for tomorrow and slicing up my fresh celery I just purchased.

I also went to Olive Garden today and bought 4 bottles of their dressing. I love this stuff and it's the only dressing I like on my salad. So now I have some that I can take to work. YAY!

I also had some skim milk with Hershey's Sugar Free Chocolate Syrup. I was so excited to find this. I love chocolate milk but I never have it because of the sugar in the chocolate. It tasted so good. *sigh*

And we continue this week. One week down, one to go!

Blew it

Well, so much for that. Not that I'm quitting, I just find it hilarious how one little thing can make me feel like an idiot.

I met a friend whom I haven't seen in awhile for lunch and we went to Subway. We always order the same thing when we go because we tend to eat alike. It's funny, like our work, "You fly, I'll buy" policy which is basically what we did except that we went together. But my friend paid and I told them what we wanted.

Our standard is a chicken bacon and ranch wrap. I thought this would be okay and I'd unroll it and just fork it. But when it was complete and we were at the table getting ready to eat I realized I didn't have a fork and I really, really, really wanted that tortilla - if only for a little bit of carbs so I could feel awake again.

So I ate it.

Though, I will say, I did pull off about half of the tortilla and only kept what was necessary to keep it together in a roll of sorts. The rest I tossed.

We also did the meal deal which was fine until I remembered I gave up Diet Coke so I had the raspberry sweetened tea, which I'm guessing was sweetened with sugar. Dammit. And the chips I just took home with me to eat at another time.

Well - that's only one meal and I do feel mucho better and am actually feeling like I can accomplish things this afternoon. I have half of my kitchen cleaned and 4 loads of laundry in. I took a break for some celery and PB and thought I'd write here.

Hopefully the lunch won't set me back too much. I'll have to work hard to erase the damage, so to speak, but I'm doing that anyway.

My excitement, which I will put on my other blog as well, I got a two sided griddle today - one side is the griddle, the other a grill so I can grill during the winter. I'm excited to try it out.

Weigh in

Okay so I weighed in and I'm at 163. Ugh. My goal is 140 but I'd be happy at 143 even. That's what I got down to the last time I did this and I felt so much better than I do now. I feel heavy, like I have weights tied to all my muscles and appendages pulling me down.

I did run this morning...well Run/Walk is more like it. I went 4.5 which was good but it didn't feel that great since I had to walk so much. So I'm going to also incorporate my breathing device to help my breathing get stronger. I feel like i've been a smoker for years the way I breathe when I run. Not good. Though it's a little to be expected since my dad smoked in the house at least a pack a day until I was 13. And then I used to spend a lot of time in a bar in seminary a few years ago...that's another story for another day. But, point is, I'm sure my lungs are caked with soot anyway.

Sooo there you have it. 20 pounds to go. No set date to make it by, I just want to do it healthy and steadily (though I guess I would like to have it gone by September so I can have a good month of lightness before the marathon).

How are you doing?

Hmmm

So today was weird. I didn't work out, which I should have, and I think the only thing I really ate, other than SF candy, was the omelet at Perkins this morning.

I'm not feeling the need for Diet Coke, which makes me happy. Maybe I can kick that habit in a good way.

I'm feeling a little low today - I'm not sure if it's because of my social life or if I'm needing carbs. We'll see.

Tomorrow I'll weigh in and let you know where I am and how far I need to go. AND I'm going to run in the morning so I'll get that completed too. :)

Hope you're doing well!

Funny trip

Hey Kat. Just wanted to say hi.

Yesterday Mom and I headed to the cities. She brought along Chex Mix for us to snack on - not the normal chex mix (which I wouldn't be able to eat either) but the chocolate truffle stuff. I inwardly said, "ugh" and then packed up some celery, PB, hard boiled eggs and string cheese - oh and some SF chocolate since I can have a little of that. She looked at me and asked what I was doing so I explained the whole "back on South Beach and can't eat that stuff" thing. She was a little miffed I didn't tell her that but who goes around telling people they're on a new eating plan again? Oh well. She ate that while I ate my celery.

Overall I'm doing well with the eating. A little too much SF candy today but I'm getting better at figuring out what I can order in places again: Salad at Chipotle but no chips, Sub at Subway but don't eat the bread, that kind of thing.

I don't really feel different yet, which the first time I did this I did, but maybe that'll change when i step on the scale Monday. Eek!

Uffda kind of day again

Truly it is getting better. I started this whole blog this morning but I forgot to send it home so it's sitting in my Drafts at work. I don't really remember what I said.

But I do know that last night after having eggs for supper and some Sugar Free candy for dessert, my tummy was going gurgle gurgle gurlge. You know that feeling? That oh crap (lit.) feeling. It's to be expected. This is a usual feeling with SB, and I don't mind it. It's that cleansing kind of feeling.

But this morning, when I didn't eat breakfast (again!) and just drank Crystal Lite all morning, my tummy got mad. It hurt...physically hurt.

But then I had some string cheese and pistachios and ran at lunch. I felt better and even more so after lunch.

I'm missing Diet Coke, but I think I'll get over it eventually. Tonight I had my chicken again for supper and I did boil eggs so I'll have those for breakfast. I don't eat the yolk, so I'll just be eating 4 egg whites. Hopefully that'll help in the mornings. :)

I'm getting a little nervous about weighing in on Monday, but I think it'll be okay.

I'm also nervous about traveling this weekend. But I think I can make it work...not as well as I would if I stayed home, but it'll be okay.

Another day down! And hopefully more weight!

Uffda

Well, what kind of self control do I really have? Nada, apparently.

Last night I had to make a pie...well I didn't have to but I promised Naomi...and so today was rough. Well, last night was rough.

The dough I made was a new recipe and because I have this thing about trying all the recipes I make, I had to sample it. It actually was really good. Really good and full of flour and butter and sugar. *sigh* I didn't eat too much because I didn't want to mess up my life too much.

Then today we had the pie. I went down to watch everyone enjoy it. Luckily EB cut the pieces really small. I broke down after all the oohs and aahs because I had to see if people were truthful or just nice because I was standing there.

I totally screwed up and had a full piece and, can I just say, damn it was good. I'm a damn good baker. This will be the death of me.

The rest of the day was okay. I steered clear of anything else not on the plan, had eggs for supper and overall didn't feel too hungry, and if I did I had celery and PB instead of chips or a candy bar. So that made me feel good.

The only bad thing, other than the pie, is that I have a headache. I haven't had a Diet Coke since Monday and going from 3 or 4 a day in the past week on the road to NONE...yeah, I have a headache. Hopefully that'll go away soon.

Starting again

Okay, so today I started running in the AM again, started SB again, and it's rag week. I'm an idiot.

My run this morning was good. I woke at 5:12 - right on schedule like I usually do. But I stalled and didn't get to the base until an hour later to run. So I ran 2 miles in 25 minutes (12.5 minute mile). Not bad but not good. I need to get stronger and faster...or at least more consistent. I walked too much. But I also dressed warmer than I needed to. It was chilly but once I got going I go really warm.

Eating today was good, except for forgetting breakfast. I had string cheese and a piece of beef jerky for snacks. Lunch was a SB meal that was actually okay for Phase 1. I was so excited to discover that. I'll have to pick up more. And I had jello-pudding for dessert.

After work I went grocery shopping and picked up a few more items to help me with my snacks and meals. I came home and made the chicken mix I usually have, just without the pasta. In a couple weeks I can add back in the pasta because I eat whole wheat and that's allowed at least.

Today wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I drank a lot of crystal lite which helped. It's just the breakfast thing. I wish SB made breakfast meals premade. But I'll figure out something.

I'm not going to weigh this week. Since it's rag week it's just not smart. So next Monday I'll weigh so I can see where I am and how much I really need to lose. The ultimate goal is 140 at least, maybe 135. I'm just not sure how much that's going to require me to lose.

I need to do this. The marathon is coming up quick and I really want to do well this year. I want to feel like I can accomplish it without worrying about being able to walk afterward. Debbie was laughing this weekend when we were talking about it because I said I have a Guthrie show that night (which is beneficial for traveling purposes, just not great since last year I had some trouble.). Last year I got blisters (wrong socks) so I had a lot of trouble walking. I also didn't stretch very well after the race and so I tightened up quickly making it hard to move.

I want to be better than this. I'm getting my motivation back which I desperately need right now.

another day

Interesting day. I feel like I've eaten better. I had eggs with veggies and cheese around 10 for brunch, then some pistachios. I had the chicken thing I made for girls day, with snap peas instead of broccoli - I liked it better, for supper. I did have some whole-wheat spaghetti but not a lot. I figured since I already screwed up Phase I with pizza the other night a little more wouldn't hurt me.

I have been eating SF candy today still, but not as much as usual. who knows. I don't really have the carb cravings like I have in the past. Maybe that's a good thing. But I do need to up the salad intake. I haven't been eating as much lately. I need to go to OG and get some dressing. I do have chicken and tomatoes so that's a good thing at least.

another bad day

Yesterday was bad. Well, actually all my breakfasts this week have been awful: String cheese and Sf candy. Pathetic. Anyway, my lunch date canceled yesterday so instead of having lunch and then taking the afternoon off, I ended up working through lunch and not leaving until 4:30. So another lunch of string cheese and SF candy. When I got home I ate the leftover pizza from Thursday and pistachios. I will say the pizza tasted damn good and I think the carbs were good for me since I hadn't had anything all day.

Hopefully today will be better. One bonus...I weighed this morning and I'm down to 157. :)

Am I in trouble?

I ate carbs for the first time in almost 2 weeks. I still have 3 days left on this non-carbs thing, but mom came over tonight so I threw in a Kashi pizza. It was yummy, but I felt a little guilty after eating it and I've had tons of energy - sugar rush maybe? hmmm... I don't know. Kashi is pretty healthy at least.

Making headway?

I haven't been writing about my food lately...mostly because it's been awful. I had a chai tea latte on Monday, but I don't think that messed with me too much. What has messed me up is SF Red Vines and SF chocolate. I've been living on those, string cheese and pistachios. I finally forced myself Tuesday night to bake chicken, and I put salsa and cheese on it - which i know is a no-no on Phase I since salsa has sugar - but I figured I needed something and most of the sugar should have baked off. The chicken tasted really good so i was glad I did that. Plus I got to eat it yesterday for lunch and I'll do that again today. I had eggs with cheese, peppers, tomato, and olives last night for supper. That was yummy too until i started eating pistachios again. sheesh.

But it's not going too bad. I'm over the hump of needing/wanting/craving carbs - I'd still like them but it's not as prominent as it was last week. And I'm down to 159 - so that's 5 pounds down. Next week is supposed to be warmer so I'll be back running again. Which is good since I have 60 days until the Brookings Marathon. It's do or die time now. I have to really push training the next few weeks. 60 days to prep for a marathon is insane but maybe I can still do it. If not, maybe i'll just go up and pick up my t-shirt and go. :) hahaha. No... I'd like to run it if I can but I'm really going to have to bust my butt the next few weeks both with strength training and cardio. Two-a-days may be a necessity. (If not three...depending on schedules and such).

So there we go. Let's see how I can do.

Weekend of SF

I spent most of the weekend eating SF candy, pistachios and string cheese. I did have salad and meat at both lunch Saturday and Sunday. But the rest of my meals were awful. Ugh.
I have to weigh in the morning. i'm more than a little nervous.

Not sure about this

Today was an interesting day. I did get breakfast because of the Prayer Breakfast - so I had lots of eggs and real bacon (whoops). I did eat a lot of SF candy but I think I'm going to have to expect that I will do that because I just do. "No popcorn, eat cheese!"

Anyway, for lunch I had salad and chicken. It wasn't bad. The guys I ate lunch with all had cake in front of me though...grrr. And tonight I went out to supper with Lisa and Emmy and I had the salad bar and chicken. It was yummy and I got to bring half of it home for tomorrow.

I need to buy some more pistachios though. Those are my favorite. I can't wait until Tuesday when I can weigh in again. I did on Monday and was 164 or 165. Friday I was 161. I can't weigh this Monday because I'll be in the cities but Tuesday I can. YAY! As long as this keeps working I'm okay with sticking with it.

Whoops

Yesterday was a really bad day. I wanted a piece of bread so bad. I didn't give in but man I really, really, really wanted one. Of course I did learn that pistachios do not make a supper. And today I learned that string cheese does not a breakfast make, nor does SF candy (twizzlers, chocolate) make a lunch - especially when you add in Free Lax. So I'm feeling pretty icky today. Luckily tomorrow is the Prayer Breakfast so I can eat eggs and bacon in the AM and lunch at noon. I am going to eat the bacon even if it's not turkey. I need the protein. Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel better.

The good news is that I weighed myself this morning (just to see if it's working) and I'm down 3 pounds. So I'll keep going. We'll see. I was thinking of moving to Phase 2 on Monday but I'll weigh again then and see if I can make it the full 14 days.

Uff da

today was good but rough. Luckily I was so busy I didn't think too much about food. I ended up drinking all my tea and 2 pops at work. Tonight I had pistachios for supper - probably not good but that's all i was in the mood for so late at night. Hopefully tomorrow will go better or I may have to break down and have some carbs. I'm so tired and blah right now, and with drill i hate to be this way this weekend.

I am still using my notebook - that has been helping, I will say.

Oh the torture!

Today was rough, but okay. I started a little notebook I can write everything down that I eat. That should be helpful. But tonight I made cookies for tomorrow's meeting and man, it's all I can do to not eat one right now. grrrr...I'm so mean to myself.

I did discover that I drink a lot more tea when I use a glass at work instead of drinking from my Nalgene bottle. That's a good thing, except I need to bring more tea with me then. I had to run home at noon to make some more.

The food does fill me up, I will say that. I'm not quite counting the calories on the 70 calories of snacks like I did last time, but I haven't been doing too bad. I had 2 mini SF candy bars today and then some jell-o. That's not bad.

I need to make my lunch for tomorrow though so off I go. Wish me luck for tomorrow!

Here we go

Alright, yesterday I tried to finish up some of the extra food I had in the house so I don't have the temptations sitting around. Today I went shopping and started remembering how fun (and frustrating) it is to shop on the SB plan. I did pick up some of the standards: jell-o, cheese, chicken, pistachios, etc. It was good.

Tonight I boiled up some eggs, cut up celery, prepared a salad and tuna for lunch tomorrow and started planning my meals for tomorrow.

I forgot how much work it is to be on this plan. At least it seems like work...preparing, measuring, planning. Ugh. I just have to remember that this does work and I have to look good by June.

Well, let's start that over. I have two goals: 1) leaner, stronger, lighter for the marathons; 2) look leaner, stronger, lighter for the opera when I have my date with Evans! at the Cincinnati Opera date.

So I have to keep these goals in mind - leaner, stronger, lighter for marathons and opera. And just keep repeating, "No popcorn, eat cheese!"

Try this again

Tomorrow is Kevin's 38th birthday. I will turn 33 soon and I'm back up to the weight I was a few years ago. I feel heavy, fat, unproductive. It's leading me to be melancholy most of the time. I need a restart. I need to start over.

tomorrow I'm going to do Jay's cleansing - liquid baby. then maybe some fruit tomorrow night and then fruit and liquid Monday, with maybe a little lettuce monday night. Tuesday I should be ready to move into SB again. I need to cut out carbs and sugar so bad. It's not even funny. If I'm even still contemplating running Brookings in May, I desperately need to drop some weight and get back running.

I suck and those thoughts are just dragging me down even farther. Hopefully this restart will get me back on track. If I can sort this out in my life maybe other things will fall back into the place they should be. Crossing fingers.