A new plan

Okay so I haven't written since day 14, which was almost 14 days ago now. I kind of got off track and I'm thinking I need to go back to tracking how I used to with my spreadsheet - calories, fat grams, carbs, sugar, etc.

Of course if I do that I can't really post it here. But here were some food thoughts I had today:

So I know this is the way things should happen, but it's so exhausting. I'm trying to watch my credit card bill this month, to keep it at my limit I've set for me - and that includes all my bills and things that automatically go to the card. I'm getting close and this statement doesn't close until next Wednesday, so I took a moment yesterday and planned out my next few meals so I maybe don't have to go grocery shopping too soon or too often.

Wednesday Lunch: SB meal; Wed. night: Chicken standard;
Thursday lunch: Chicken standard; Thursday night: eggs;
Friday lunch: Chicken standard; Friday night: Meatloaf;
Saturday lunch - going out to eat with sister (which will be a charge but I can keep that low);
Saturday night: meatloaf;
Sunday lunch - probably meatloaf; Sunday night - probably meatloaf or a SB pizza.
Monday lunch - meatloaf or eggs
Then I'll shop on Monday so I can make chicken for the next few days. (And of course, me being me, I have this all on a sticky and I'm crossing them off as I complete the meal - I'm such a geek).

It's just tiring because now I have to think ahead and think about what I'm buying. It's good for me though. My financial planner wants me to buy a house this spring, and while I am excited about the possibility I really don't have enough funding to do that just yet (at least not in my head). I got my step increase last week which was nice so I need to be putting money away again. Every little bit helps. I usually keep a semi-running total in my head anyway so I don't overbuy things. Sometimes though I forget about things like my haircut Monday because it wasn't a planned purchase or event, yet needed. It's just difficult sometimes.

Day 14, January 2009

Another interesting day. I missed breakfast because I kept debating if I should run or not. I ended up not and had brunch - my chicken mix - at 10:45 and a mini bag of popcorn. This was good except I didn't eat anything except SF candy or twizzlers until after my run tonight (7:30 for supper). And then I had a SB pizza and another mini bag of popcorn. It was really good.

I'm going to have to watch my popcorn intake, but I don't want to just eat cheese either. i do have my mother's constitution when it comes to that.

I also need to drink more water based liquids - like crystal lite or water. Yesterday I only had diet coke. That was a little too much.

Day 13, January 2009

Alrighty...so I think i'm officially off phase one now. :0

I met up with Tre and Allison at Olive Garden for lunch, so I skipped breakfast because I always eat too much there. I had the soup and salad, only one breadstick (yay), but the soup had some pasta in which i forgot about. Oh well.

i ate way too much as usual so I didn't eat much this afternoon. I had my chicken mix for supper and the a mini-bag of popcorn for a snack tonight and a couple pieces of SF candy.

Not bad, but I really need to get out running.

Okay...this just popped in my head so I need to vent. Mr. CG from FB had commented on my photos there the other day - was it yesterday? maybe...anyway. I had posted pics of all my baking and he writes, "I hope you don't bake like this too often." I'm like, why? what's wrong with me baking. and he says, "It'd be hard to be on an eating plan with those."

This kind of pissed me off. First off, it's none of his damn business how much I bake or how often. Second, if I wanted to eat it all I can because it's again, none of his damn business. Third, What the hell?

Looking back, I think this is why I stopped talking to him 12 years ago when we stopped. I hated him constantly talking down to me about what I was doing with my life. What a prick.

I'm only writing this because I'm so pissed I want to make cookies and then post pictures of me scarfing them down just to show him that I can. But I know that I can't and won't do that. When I bake I really limit how many I can and will eat because I do that for me.

ugh. this guy has made my day so shitty I just want a cookie right now.

Day 12, January 2009

Interesting day today. I think I'm basically back on Phase 2, sort of.

Started the day with a donut - sheesh. But I didn't want HB eggs today. I just wasn't in the mood for them. But then I had a meeting at 9, another at 10 and I finally got out at 12 and I was starving and crabby.

So I went home and had SB pizza. I had some nuts and SF candy in the afternoon. Then I had chicken mix for supper.

Then SF Twizzlers and Orville Smart Pop kettle corn - mini bag.

I know! I shouldn't have had the popcorn but I it was good and the mini bags are just the right amount.

So I think I'm basically back on Phase 2 which is okay...this is the phase where I'm supposed to lose the most weight, right? Tomorrow I'm hitting the soup and salad at OG so that'll help too.

Day 11, January 2009

Good and bad day today.

4 HB egg whites which I didn't eat until almost 10 which was a very bad thing
Had some Nut-rition nuts
SF candy
SF jello
scrambled eggs with peppers, tomatoes and cheese

And here's the bad thing:
SB Pepperoni Pizza
2 donuts

Oh those last two were the bad ones. Especially the donuts. This is why I shouldn't eat in the breakroom because there's extra food in there that I shouldn't eat. SO i'm going to have to go back to eating at my desk. It'll be best.

Day ten, January 2009

Better today, but not great.

Scrambled eggs
3 pieces Canadian Bacon
Lots of Lipton French Vanilla tea - yummmy with splenda
Chicken Mix
SF pudding
Almonds
SF Candy - again (I need to stop this...it gets in the way of my real food)
turkey slices
edamame
crystal lite
1 diet soda

I think I'm not eating enough again. I need to think about this. And I didn't make anything for lunch tomorrow so I'm going to have to go somewhere. That should be interesting. But at least I didn't eat the cake that was in the breakroom, or the chips I was really wanting.

Day nine, January 2009

And I screwed up - twice. But since I'm planning on being on Phase 1 for three weeks instead of just two.

Today:
4 HB egg whites
String cheese
Chicken Mix
Steamed veggies
Jello
Sugared donut - there's the first bad
hot cocoa - there's the second
Chicken with honey teriyaki, dijon, and cheese
Crystal Lite
Diet soda's
Debating on ice cream since I've already messed up.

And then, on facebook Nikki sends me the "which one of the 7 deadly sins are you" quiz and I end up with this:
You are the sin of gluttony. Gluttony is the an unreasonable desire to constantly eat more and more than your body needs. Food is usually your answer to problems and relaxation.

Great...just what I needed to hear. Basically, it's been a very rough day.

Day eight, January 2009

Another rough day in paradise, but this is start of week 2 on Phase 1. This is a good thing.

I weighed this morning and I was at 158. That's not bad. It's the week before whoosh week and I had a rough weekend so it's too be expected.

Food today:
4 HB Egg Whites
A lot of SF candy
string cheese
Chicken mix
Chicken mix again
spitchi mor
a couple slices of sargento cheese
Crystal Lite
Diet pops

I asked Kevin for some tips for different chicken recipes. He gave me a few ideas so I'm going to work on some of those.

Tomorrow will be better because I'll be back on my schedule.

Day seven, January 2009

Another interesting day in the land of Moe.

We had breakfast at work, but of course that includes hashbrowns, biscuits and gravy, and because we're weird where we work, we have salad. Well, I ate at 10 so I had eggs, bacon, jello and skim milk (which kind of buzzed my head a bit - odd). I was so hungry today, I almost broke down and had a doughnut. But I didn't! I had string cheese and some PB (on communion wafers, no less), and some SF candy.

Then I went grocery shopping so I don't have to tomorrow. I picked up some leaner ground beef so I can make some meatloaf. Jim W was talking about it today and I really got hungry for it. But tonight I just had my chicken mix again and some SF twizzlers.

I read though some of my August 2005 entries, back when I first got on SB. It was interesting to see how I went up and down with boredom of food. I'm kind of there right now but then I read about some of the recipes I used to make and got to thinking those would be good to do again. I'll have to experiment this week.

Earlier this weekend I was thinking I'd just do the 2 weeks of Phase I. I know when I started this again I thought I'd do 3 weeks, but then I was back to the two weeks. But now after reading my posts again I think I might go back to the three. If I can get a little more creative at night at least (my Chicken mix is great for work), I think I'll do fine. I do need to incorporate more salad though. I know that helped a lot the first time around.

Well, things to think about as I move into week two. One week down. I'll weigh tomorrow and see how I'm doing and will post here.

Day Six, January 2009

Okay, it's not getting hard because I can't have wheat or sugar, it's hard because I'm getting bored with the food.

This is the problem with starting SB in the middle of winter when I can't go outside and grill. My options for eats are limited. It's not that I don't like chicken, because God knows I do, but I just miss having more options. Oh well. I still like my chicken mix, I just need to make some other stuff.

So today:
I missed breakfast because of meetings so I didn't eat anything until 10:15 for lunch:
Steak with real A1
Salad with low cal Italian
Cottage Cheese with sunflower seeds
jello (no SF) with grapes (not supposed to have - just remembered that now)
And lemonade - which I'm sure had sugar.
SF candy throughout day
Diet A&W (2)
Crystal Lite
Chicken, green peppers, tomatoes and the steamed veggie mix and cheese!

Not really the best day. This is funny to write it all down because I was going to have ice cream tonight because I've been so good. I still might because dammit, it's Saturday and I'd like to have some ice cream, but I'm really trying to be good. We'll see.

Day five, January 2009

Food today:
4 HB Egg whites (I'm getting addicted to these. they are so easy!)
1 string cheese
8 oz (apprx) lean steak
Steamed veggie mix from GG (with carrots - whoops)
SF candy
spitchi mor
5 egg whites, 1 egg - scrambled with cheese, green peppers and tomatoes
3 slices Canadian bacon (yes, breakfast for supper)
Crystal Lite
Diet Coke
Diet Coke with Splenda
Diet A&W
Diet Sunkist

A little too much pop and probably a little too much SF candy, but they help me through the day which is all I care about right now. I was going to go grocery shopping tonight but I was so tired I just decided to come home.

I really want pizza. It's Friday. Friday is supposed to be pizza day and I haven't had any since Sunday (and that was icky pizza). Maybe I'll do Phase 1 and 1/2 like I used to. We'll see.

Day four, January 2009

Food today:
4 HB Egg whites
Small amount of Chicken mix with cheese
SF Jello pudding
SF candy
Turkey slices
mustard
2 qts crystal lite
Diet Cokes
Diet A&W

Today was a bad day. It doesn't help that I'm sick, now on drugs, but this morning was bad. I didn't eat my eggs until 8:30, and I felt lightheaded for most of the morning afterward. I was so busy and I didn't realize how much I should have been eating until I went to Casey's to pick up things and we were standing in the hallway talking about JG and my head started to spin. Not good. Of course then I went to the doctor who gave me drugs. Yay drugs!

I had some SF candy this afternoon and that really did help, amazingly enough. But I'm not that hungry so I'm going to have to force myself to eat because I can't be weak this weekend.

Wish me luck tomorrow!

Day three, January 2009

Today was difficult. My body can totally tell that it's not getting the carbs or sugar it normally does.

Food:
4 HB egg whites
2 Canadian bacon
1 string cheese
2 Diet Coke w/ Splenda
Chicken mix with cheese...mmmm.
SF Jello pudding
1 Diet A&W
6 slices turkey with mustard
2qts crystal lite.

I find I'm skipping the night snack...just realized that now, shockingly enough. So I might find something to eat before bed.

I'm also not feeling great - I've got some weird puss or snot thing on the left side of my throat. God, I hope it's not strep or mono. That would suck. So, if it's still there tomorrow when I get up I'm going to take a trip to Urgent Care or the clinic or someplace because I can't afford to be sick right now.

Day two, January 2009

Great day! I love bringing my own food to work.

Food today:
4 HB Egg whites
2 slices Canadian Bacon
1 packet Blue Diamond All Natural Almonds (blah)
2 Diet Coke with Splenda
1 Low moisture String Cheese
Chicken mix (needs more cheese for tomorrow)
String Cheese
Jello pudding snack (dessert)
Celery and PB snack
2 qts Crystal Lite
8 oz lean steak

I probably should have had some veggies with supper tonight but I was just craving meat and not craving salad at all. Tomorrow I'll be better.

Day one, January 2009

Okay, so I'm doing this SB thing again because I need to. Though truly I've been sitting at 160 for awhile and haven't really fluctuated too much, but I want to be 140. I think I'll feel better and be able to run better. Plus I'll look hot. :)

SO today was Phase 1, Day one. Here's the eats:

Scrambled eggs - 4 egg whites, 1 full egg
Chicken mix*
Cottage cheese with crushed cashews
I piece spitchimor (or however it's spelled)
Chicken mix for supper
3 SF chocolate pieces
2qts Crystal Lite Peach Tea
1 Diet coke with splenda

*Chicken mix is chicken in Italian dressing with tomatoes, veggie mix, and cheese.

The one bad thing I did is that the Chicken Mix with the veggies has carrots and I totally forgot that I'm not supposed to have carrots the first two weeks. But considering the limited amount that I eat of them, I'm not going to pick them out of my steamed veggie mix. It's just a pain in the ass and not worth it.

What I'll probably do to compensate is stay on Phase 1 for at least three weeks instead of just 2. We'll see on that though because I will probably be really crabby in two weeks since it's rag week and I won't have had bread since yesterday. AARRGGHHH!

But there we go. It's a start. I bought groceries today and cut up celery for tomorrow and I have HB eggs for tomorrow as well. I took out lean steak for tomorrow night's meal - maybe. :) I just need to get some more SF chocolate so I can curb those cravings. One piece three times a day is under the calorie mark and helps me out.

I'm at 160, and by May I hope to be at 140. that's my goal. Keep me on task here folks. I need it.