day 60-29

Two months. Wow. Two full months of being on SB and 12 pounds down. Not bad really. I’m a few shy of the 2 pounds a week I was hoping, but still happy with the results. The elca sent out their healthy newsletter or whatever recently and it said to help keep motivated a person should take 5 to list 5…I’m paraphrasing in a big way because I can’t quite remember the details but this makes sense to me…list 5 reasons why you need to stay motivated as well as what is going well, so here are mine:

· I feel better than I have in years. I don’t feel (as) fat and uncomfortable being around myself.

· When I catch a glance of me in the mirror or a window I don’t cringe and look away.

· I’m closer to my goal.

· I haven’t checked but 10 to 1 my cholesterol has gone down.

· Clothes are more fun to shop for and purchase when they are smaller. :)

day 59-28

Doing well today. I haven’t had these since Monday AM and though I would love one (or two or seven), I’m holding off…well at least until later when I can get to Rainbow to get more. :)

day 58-27

Weighed this morning, just to see. Down another pound finally! I’m off the plateau, and God-willing I’ll keep off that pound and keep going lower. I’m at a weight I haven’t been in 2 years, yet I’m still at least 3 pounds away from breaking the weight I’ve never been able to drop below since college. Ugh.

comments:

Justin n said...

keep up the good work. P and I just started WW again this week. Granted it has only been three days, but things are going good and we are both excited to be dieting again. It makes me feel so much better about everything, when I am not engorging myself on anything and everything. Internship has not been kind to the belly!!

3:03 PM

k said...

yay, yay, yay, yay!

day 57-26

Good day today…had my eggs, had my salad/chicken, ate out at Pizza Lucé for the first time with a1 and a2 (had ½ of a chicken Dijon hoagie on whole wheat…yummy!) and also got an email from Jim at sbonline…he’s my new diet coach. I had written to Shawn, but Shawn no longer works there so Jim is taking on my file. He gave me some good pointers - like going ALL…THE…WAY to phase 2 instead of the phase 1.5. Apparently phase 2 is the phase designed for the most weight loss…I didn’t know that. very interesting. I still hesitate because I don’t want to backslide and be eating bread non-stop like I have in the past. I had the half sandwich last night and it was very good, and I’m glad to know that I have been doing well these last 57 days at saying no most times to bread. It’s a good start for me at least. I need to get back running…it’s been a couple weeks which isn’t good (no smilies!) but timing hasn’t worked out the best. It’s best for me, psychologically, to go home, have a light supper, then run, but when you’re not getting home until after 7pm and it’s almost dark out this doesn’t work…not in our neighborhood (see here for more details if you haven’t read them already). So I either need to suck it up and join Bally’s or something comparable OR I need to start hauling my ass to SH and working out in the gym there. The latter requires me to bring yet another bag to work with me each day – clothes to change into of course. I may have to turn Morty’s boot into a closet at this rate, with a little portable fridge for my lunch.

comments:
erik g said... morty's boot? I think that is cute....

keep at it. I went to the Y for the first time today. it is amazing!!!

days 54-23, 55-24, 56-25

I may have an addiction.
It’s a bad thing, but I’m going to try really hard not to let it overcome me this week as it has the past week.
They’re just so good…but, well…you know. Okay, be strong, moe...you can do it.

I finally got lettuce last night (I had been out for 3 days – SO not good) and I’m actually looking forward to my salad today. The weekend eating was rough – I need to figure out how to eat better during events. I tried eating a big salad (from Chipotle – mmmm) yesterday before the president’s tea…and it worked pretty well for the first 4 hours…but those last few hours just didn’t. Something to work on, I guess.

day 53-22

I think I’m becoming addicted to these. Not a good thing. Eh, whadda ya do.

Today wasn’t the best. I got up late so I didn’t get my eggs made so I had to buy an omelet at work. It was okay, but not the best. I’m not a fan of egg beaters, but they seem to get confused when I ask for egg whites only so for simplicity I just use the ‘beaters’. Lunch was non-existant as I had forgotten it, plus I had the afternoon off. Broke down and had a sb pizza last night. I’m so wrong.

I’ve been stressed lately – not as bad as last week but still stressed. It’s there this week too, just more subtle. Not sure what to do with this. My schedule is suddenly busier than snot again…I wasn’t quite ready for that – usually it eases in. this time is just ‘slam-bam-thank you ma’am’…and not in the good way. Maybe I’ll settle into a groove soon. I hope soon.

day 52-21

I have no consistency. One day I’m great, the next horrible. Ugh! I’m so frustrated with myself. Why can’t life just be normal? Just lamenting here…nevermind.

day 51-20

Yesterday was MUCHO better. I had a beach burger yesterday at green mill…highly recommend except don’t eat the cheese – that wasn’t good. Oh well. I grilled up some E-steak and chicken tonight. that will help my eating situation during the week more. I’ve been out of chicken for my salad since last Friday. Today I finally have some again! YAY!

Note to K – thank you for talking with me about all this SB stuff again. I’m sorry to constantly pick your brain about this and whine and complain. Things aren’t going too bad…12 pounds in 7 weeks really isn’t that bad – I mean this is almost 2 pounds a week. And like I said, the gaining last week with PMS wasn’t as bad as it was the first time. Hopefully this whoosh week will be better. And I know with running and building muscle I’m slowing the ‘loss’ effect for a little bit. It’s all good. You’re so great. :)

day 50-19

Wow - 50 days already? and only 11 pounds down and at least 19 to go. To answer you, K - No…last week was just another bad PMS week. did you have that problem too – where everything seems to just tick you off more and more during those weeks? This week is better, but then again it’s only Tuesday AM. HAHA! Okay…well, I said, no but more so I just felt like I didn’t have a lot time last week. I added up my hours and I had worked 57 Monday-Saturday. A lot of later nights at work, getting home and just feeling so exhausted (physically and mentally) I could barely move. It was just a looooong week. I finally did dishes last night after about a week an a half…so not good. Last night wasn’t much better – I got home after 7 and was just wiped out…I did dishes out of sheer necessity, had some pistachios (oh so healthy) and crashed. My energy is just sapped, and I know it’s because I’m not eating well and I haven’t been running. I just suck. OH and did you know chipotle actually has a salad now? I saw an ad for it when mom and I were there after Labor Day. I haven’t been there since but I need to go back.

day 48-17, 49-18

Hey k, do you remember that first sb weekend I had before I officially started? How I ate sf chocolate and cheese all weekend? Yeah, that was this weekend again, with one sb pizza thrown in for comfort food. Ugh. Craziness. Trying to be better today. I can’t keep this up…it’s killing me.

comments:
K said...

sorry you've gotten so frustrated...what can i do? is it that you've run out of ideas and recipes? or you're just sick of the whole thing? i have found that i really like to go to chipotle and make my own salad there (no beans, add the guac) as it makes it feel like i'm splurging even if i'm not.

day 47-16

thanks e, now I feel totally guilty for breaking down and having some fries at lunch. :) This has been a sucky week and comfort food is screaming at me. So I’m off after a wedding rehearsal at 6 to get another sb pizza…the last for awhile. this weekend will be my last with ‘some carbs’ as I HAVE to go back to just phase one next week. it’ll be whoosh week too so hopefully that’ll help. And hopefully life will slow down even a hair so my head won’t spin as much as it did this week.

45-14, 46-15

These last two days have been awful. Last night Debbie and I went to Major’s and I was totally awful and had tortilla chips with the pepperjack spinach dip we get. yum but so naughty. Today has been okay but with all these meetings and running around trying to get caught up I’m lucky if I get lunch, let alone my required snacks between meals. It’s not helping me at all. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Now I’m off to home for leftover chicken…blech…or maybe that last sb pizza. hmmm

comments:
e said... tortilla chips are soooo good. but totally not on the diet.

hope you are having a good day. keep working on the diet and running(i am very proud of you for that).

i myself must go home now and run

day 44-13

After feeling like crap all afternoon, I went home, took a short nap and then woke up famished. So I tried one of the kraft sb pizza’s. mmmmm that was good. I hadn’t had pizza since july 23 so it was even better than good. I found myself watching papa john’s commercials wondering if they have a whole wheat crust or if they would ever make one. I miss ordering pizza – the decision, the making the call, the anticipation and finally! Ding-dong and there it is…hot, fresh, steamy and juicy. Mmmm oh well. A small price to pay for being skinny, which I’m not yet and maybe never will be.

day 43-12

Those numbers keep going up but weight won’t go down. Maybe once things resettle into normalcy I can get back on track again. I didn’t run last night, need to tonight. less than 5 months to the 10K. gotta get started.

Days 40-9, 41-10, 42-11

Nevermind. We couldn’t run because it was too windy. Ugh. What a world…not that I’m complaining…it was windier than snot but man. So I had to do the stupid step test again. It’s so inaccurate. For those who don’t know, the step test is a 3-minute 1-foot step up to a cadence (up – up – down - down) then your buddy checks your pulse, counting for 1 full minute within 3-seconds of completing the test. This is tricky especially if you can’t find pulses well. So I did my test and my buddy counted for the minute and came up with 79. HA! That’s SO unlikely, especially when 3 weeks ago I counted 137 and Kristi counted 122. But, at least it’s not just me since I counted Tammy at 67. blech. So we went with 110 for her and 114 for me. We figured that was fairly fair since neither of us is truly trained in checking pulses. So whatever. In 6 months I get to do it all again but I’m hoping I can talk them into letting me run instead – especially since by then I should have a 10K under my belt!

day 39-8

I hate having meetings in the afternoons. It throws my eating all off. Oh well. Ran last night, later than normal so I was nervous in itself running through a very wooded park with little lighting at dusk. It’s not that I live in a bad neighborhood, it’s just that I’m just blocks south of ghetto country and I worry. Oh well. I survived and it was fine.

I am putting out a plea for prayers for tomorrow (Saturday) AM. I have to run an almost 3K (that sounds better than 1.5 miles) and I’m so not a morning runner. I’ve been running the past three weeks and getting better but I’m really worried about tomorrow. I don’t like asking for prayers for something so trivial, but I think I could use all the help I can get.

day 38-7

I think I need to go back to phase 1 completely next week. I’ve been holding steady at my current weight for a couple weeks now…not up but not down either. Maybe a few more weeks on phase 1 would be good.

E you rock! You are a god of the grill, so to speak! I used your tips the other night and omigoodness the succulence of the steak was almost divine! Well, not quite as good as yours, nothing could be as good as yours, but wow! I never knew I could do that! yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Thank you for sharing your trade secrets!

day 37-6

Took mom to chipotle yesterday. That was yummy. I was bad though and had a little bit of rice and one chip. But it was still yummy. Oh well. Ran last night but the humidity just kicks my ass. I hope it’s not like this Saturday AM. 3 friggin’ days til I have to run for time. Not going well. I just need to pray harder, right? ‘cause prayer solves everything. Mmm hmm…that and running my ass off.

days 35-4, 36-5

Interesting weekend. Sunday I worked so I sort of ate okay. Monday I didn’t work, which was nice, but then I was just home all day doing nothing and ate horribly. I attempted to make some cookies last night (for mom’s snack bag for her trip home today): my carb control PB cookies with splenda, very little sugar (but some), brown sugar and whole wheat flour. Yeah…they didn’t taste the best – well they just didn’t taste like normal cookies. The flour is weird. Oh well…I didn’t make many so I wasn’t out much. I just shouldn’t have eaten the ones I did. I felt like crap afterward…that’ll teach me. Ha!

I did try some of the Kraft SB meals this weekend…they have refrigerated wraps – the chicken one was pretty good, the turkey one wasn’t too bad. I bought their pizza last night but not going to have it until Sunday after guards. I realized when I bought it that I haven’t had pizza since July 23. how insane is that! this from a girl who used to eat it at least once a week, sometimes more. Look at me…I’m growing.

days 33-2, 34-3

Friday was awful…well, after FINALLY eating lunch around 2:30 after the guy left, I worked til 6:40, then karen s and I went to the wallace’s for the open house. We didn’t stay long but it dredged up some memories again. Oh well. Went home and wasn’t really hungry so I had some soy tortilla chips which are good, but thank goodness have an aftertaste so I don’t overeat them. I should have gone running but I was just exhausted so instead I took a long bath and went to bed at 9:30.

Today’s food isn’t going well either. I did have breakfast but I missed lunch. I’m just not hungry on the weekends. Odd. Talked with my former trainer…he’s now a vegan – well at least at home, but when he’s out and about (like this weekend) then he plays vegetarian. He hasn’t had meat intentionally since July 1. Seems odd, but he’s looking good. We’re both getting little! I'm intending to run tonight after the wedding and running a couple errands. i should have run this morning but I completely slept in! wow! 10 hours of incredible sleep. I feel great today.

Oh and I making plans to run a 10K in Feb in Florida with Mikey and Schlenker. Let’s just see if I actually follow through on that one. :)

comments:
E said...

10K, that is pretty ambitious. GO FOR IT!!!