day 18

I’m beginning to hate this. This week has totally sucked for food. Went out with carol last night to the Machine Shed. Good eats – had half a steak, some cole slaw and cottage cheese. Carol had the other half, mashed potatoes and corn. Very funny to look at our food choices…or at least what we could eat. This running around all afternoon to check on things does not help my eating. I need to figure something out if this continues. Ugh. Plus I feel fat and bloated and icky today. i feel like I’m never going to be skinny, or thin or less than what I weigh right now. It seems like such a pipe dream, one that your parents pat you on the head about when you’re 6 or 7 when you say you want to be an astronaut and go to Mars and they say, “of course, honey, you can do anything you set your mind to,” but then turn around and chuckle at your youthful notions as your brother begins to beat you to a pulp because, ‘man, you’re already from mars.’ Guh. I hope this passes because this just makes me crabby.

comments:
A One said...

Remember...lifestyle change, lifestyle change. Fad diets are for sissies....lifestyle change. If you build it, they will come...lifestyle change.

day 17

Not so good yesterday. I’m not drinking enough. This week has been awful. On top of being PMS week (sorry men who read this) but it’s also been the most stressful week of the summer. Ugh! This event this week is killing us all. Plans weren’t thought ahead, people planning aren’t available for discussion (ever, it seems) and so now we’re completely in crunch time. On top of which everyone wants to book for the fall so it’s just nasty.

Now that’s not completely sb stuff but I think it effects my situation today. Gained back a pound point 6 today. That so does not make me happy (see I knew weighing twice a week would bit me in the ass some day) but looking at this week it makes sense. I haven’t been eating right – my water intake has gone WAY down, my food intake has been screwed up because of meetings and not having anything with me or just being so exhausted at night that the last thing I want to do is make a salad or grill up chicken – popsicles baby. They’ve been my friend but they’re becoming my downfall.

This coming weekend will be rough, I know. It’s family day at guards and the menu is pulled pork sandwiches, baked beans, chips and orange drink. Blech on all counts. My family doesn’t know about the sb thing so packing a lunch will be funny since they have no idea what’ll be going on when I whip out my celery and salad. But I’m going to struggle my way through and then Monday start back to phase 1 and do the best I can. that’s all I can do at this point.

Comments;
A ONE said...

Not drinking enough.....water or rum? There will always be liquids for you upstaris. Always.

And do yourself a favor....DO NOT WEIGH YOURSELF TWICE A WEEK. EVER. EVER. EVER.

The weeks when I can't hold back and wait until Monday (my "official" weigh in day) and check my weight during the week, are like hell for me. It's just psychological torture because your body can be so physcially all over the map from one day to the next.

I repeat....DO NOT WEIGH YOURSELF TWICE A WEEK. STEP AWAY FROM THE SCALE.

(and again with the pullled pork, what gives?)

days 15, 16

First day of phase 1.5 went well. I ordered my carbsense stuff – pizza crust, pie crust (for tiny pies!), and tortilla chips. Hopefully they’ll be good. The day went pretty well for food. Thank goodness you can have eggs as much as you want – I love eggs and egg whites are really up my alley. Mmmm and popsicles and fudgsicles. mmmm

Today was good but kind of off over all. Had an appointment in the am so I ate at home (odd – it felt like a weekend) then c and I had a lunch meeting. I found a really good salad at Ruby Tuesday’s – the Skinny Salad…dressing is on the side and it has grilled chicken, cheese, chopped tomatoes and lots of lettuce. Yum. But then we were running around the rest of the day. Finally got to eat at 6:30. I had remembered cheese for my purse this morning but forgot for the afternoon. I’m going to just keep almonds or something in my purse all the time.

Sooooo, so far it seems to be going well. I’m going to have to try my pants on that are sizes smaller than what I wear now. Not sure it’s the best time to do that…maybe too soon, but I need to see where I am and where I can go.

days 12, 13, 14

One more pound down. Again I worry about weighing twice a week, and this morning was a little worrisome since the weekend wasn’t the best. Someday this’ll bite me in the ass. But since July 11 I’m down 10 pounds total, acc. to myfooddiary.com, so it’ll be interesting to see my family this weekend and see if they notice anything different. They haven’t seen me since July 4^th so I wonder if I look different. I don’t feel like I look different but 10 pounds is a nice chunk to lose. Haha…nice pun.

Technically I could be in phase 2 today. But alas, I think I’m going to stay on phase 1 a little longer – or at least phase 1.5 (maybe). Friday went well, even with the multiple units of alcohol in my system from oc’s with jb – oh and the wingy (miss you e!) and veggie & dip tray. I did learn why alcohol isn’t recommended during phase 1…damn, no carbs or bread to suck up the alcohol and whoa can you get a buzz in a hurry! :)

Saturday went okay. I stayed home all day, had my meals as I could (should!) but also had only diet coke to drink and lots of popsicles. Sad, really I’m sad. Sunday was similar except for less popsicles and I had some steak for dinner. (E – can you send me your tricks because mine turned out too done. It was still good, but I can’t quite figure out how to grill it right. Can you help?)

I’m getting addicted to the sugar free popsicles though. They are SO yummy and it’s so hard to believe they are sugar free. I wish I could pack them to take to work with me but maybe that’d be going too far. It’s probably good I’m not sitting at home everyday – I’d go through a box every week! As it is now, it takes me 2 weeks. haha

comments:
e said:
wingy, erik like wingy!!!

sear it on both sides with high heat. then turn the flame down a bit(since you cook on gas and not charcoal you can regulate the heat better).

then cook it about 5 minutes less than you think you should, and you will probably be good. the great thing is, you always just turn the grill back on if it isn't done enough.

day 11

Last night was a bad night. Uffda. I hope it doesn’t set me back too much. Wednesday I had read that I could have 30 pistachios versus the 15 almonds or cashews. So I bought a bag. YUMMY! I love pistachios. That’s a danger, though, because last night while I was waiting for my balsamic chicken (in the book) to finish cooking I had some. Then after supper I was still a little hungry so I had more. NOT good…way too many pistachios. On one hand, at least it wasn’t chocolate or sugar or chips, but man…that was so not good. I have to divide those up tonight into little bags of 30 and allow one a day. Grrrr at me.

Otherwise the balsamic chicken from last night was divine! MMMMM so yummy. I kind of like this program because to curb my boredom I’m kind of forced to make different kinds of recipes – which are easy to make, it’s just a trick to actually taking the time to prepare since the last two have required at least some time of marinating. And the recipes turn out great! I love these chicken options! I’m going to try the turkey roll ups tonight. I didn’t get the Boston leaves because that seemed odd to me so I’m going to try normal lettuce and I hope that will work.'

comments:

K said...

CHICKEN!

10:20 AM

k said...

don't worry too much about the pistachios. like you said, it's not like you ate chocolate cake or something. besides, you are nearing the end of the first two weeks, when it gets toughest. just take it as a reminder of human frailty and buck up for the last few days of the weekend. you are doing a fantastic job.

i went to a dmlc parishioner's house last night for supper, which is always a scary thing on the diet, but managed to do okay. big relief! i always do well for about a month, and then have something to derail me. so, i keep losing the same five pounds over and over. not good. but, if i establish solid patterns now as i enter two new worlds (one where i'm the pastor and the other where i'm the pastor's wife), then it should work out fine.

i'm pulling for you!

10:23 AM

day 10

I really shouldn’t do this, but I weighed again this morning. Another pound down. I guess as long as it keeps going down, weighing twice a week isn’t bad. I shouldn’t though, because that one week I plateau I’m scared I’m going to give it all up. Found sugar free Twizzlers last night. Mmmm And I had a dream that I was eating the sf fudgsicles and loving them but then I actually finally looked at the box and it said they had 38g of sugar. Scared the crap out of me so I had to double check this morning…*sigh* no sugar.

Yesterday was better for food, but I’m finding my nighttime is harder than last week. I don’t have food for supper at home. When before I’d just throw in a pizza or have a grilled cheese sandwich, now I’m trying to find salad – which once a day is about all I can eat of that or I get bored – or eggs or chicken or something. I just realized I could have had tuna and I probably should have last night but oh well. I’m marinating chicken right now for balsamic chicken from the book for tonight. I hope it turns out. I really do because earlier this week I heard myself say, I’m bored with my food. Not a good thing. That was when I tried the gingered chicken (which is almost better cubed and heated up to put on a salad, than just eating alone) and triggered again the balsamic chicken I started last night. I need steak. I’m going to HAVE to grill this weekend and then call E so he can walk me through his steps so it turns out nummy instead of charred.

I am making a list of all the stuff I have in my cupboards and freezer to take home next week for my sister or brother for their kids…like chicken nuggets – I can’t eat those so I might as well get them out of the house – as well as the pretzels, ‘normal’ pasta, etc. better to have it gone than hanging around.

Off to my virtual model so I can see if I am shrinking in size or if it’s just my imagination.

day 9

Tuesday went much better. Though, I felt more hungry than usual, or at least more hungry than I have these past 2.5 weeks. I ate my eggs and was starving so I had some cheese AND peanuts before lunch. Lunch was a bigger salad than Monday but it didn’t fill me up so more cheese in the afternoon. That helped, and I was good the rest of the afternoon. I hadn’t brought my standard celery/pb so good thing I didn’t need that. supper was iffy. I wasn’t in the mood to eat, though I was craving steak but had totally forgotten to pick one up when I was at Rainbow so I had my leftover chicken salad, small salad, and jello/coolwhip for dessert. Then a fudgsicle later – those are soooo yummy.

Not sure why I’m suddenly more hungry than usual. I didn’t have my diet coke I usually have during the day, but drank my normal amount of CL plus some when I got home. Very strange.

Justin G said
keep up the good work moe!

day 8

Day 8 went okay. Standard eggs for b-fast; cheese for snack; salad with chicken for lunch; celery/pb for snack; then I had string cheese again around 5 while chatting with Bekah then went home to mow. OMIGOD…then I went home to mow. First it was humid and hot so I was sweating like a pig – well like a horse since pigs don’t sweat – but man, I felt so wiped when I was finished. E – you were right. Today I’m going to jog but man I’m a little nervous. After mowing, shower and water I had a small salad and a sf fudgesicle for the first time – YUMMY!

These are going to be pretty boring entries soon, huh, if I just keep listing my food which doesn’t seem to change from day to day. Oh well…i need to track it somewhere and like I said, you don’t have to read this. :)

sb - tough times

k asked me when it was that i was having a harder time than others. for many it is late afternoon/evening - right when you're done with work and you're home and snacking is a way of life. This is true for me, but i think my most difficult time is weekends - and not because i'm out doing things so i'm around 'junk' food but it's when i'm home doing little, relaxing from the long week. these are my tough times. these are the times when i'm reading or watching a movie (or three) and i'm just chillin' in my chair. these are the times when i tend to gravitate toward the popsicles or sf chocolate onlyl- like my first saturday on sb - unofficial saturday though - i didn't eat well because i was home reading the book(!) and relaxing. these are the days when I used to just have popcorn for snacks and pizza for supper.

weekends are tough too - or i'm anticipating they may be - when i have to go home for guards. travelling by car is 'snack-time!' guard drill weekends - especially the paper weekends - are stressful and end up being snackfilled and not good stuff - crackers, cookies, sunflower seeds, pop, pop, more pop, suckers, etc. that's coming up soon and i'm getting worried. this one won't be too bad at least for the office - but it's family day so it'll be a cookout at the waterpark. uffda. the first my family will see me since i've started and only lisa knows that i'm attempting this.

I guess I’ll just have to trust myself that I can do this, and I know I can. k&e are a tremendous support, too. Their support, even from afar, is a great help.

day 7

Sunday was an okay day. I ended up having string cheese for breakfast on the way to church since I was running late, as usual. But I did have my eggs between services. After church I made the gingered chicken marinade from the sb book and took a quick nap (yay naps!) while my chicken finished defrosting. Then a salad with some cubed chicken for lunch. The afternoon was bad – nuts, but more than I should have had; two popsicles (only 20 calories – I love them!). For supper I baked the gingered chicken instead of frying it…I don’t like frying things in my house because it spatters everywhere and makes the house smell…and it was yummy. I’m going to cube it up tonight for my salads the rest of the week. I had salad with the chicken and then jell-o with cool whip for dessert. That pretty much filled me up – in fact I felt like I had actually eaten too much.

The rest of the night was okay. I chopped up my peppers for my eggs for the week; made my eggs for Monday; made the salad for Monday, etc. I think I’m going to have to make Sunday’s my day to coordinate my next few days. I need to make it a point to actually make my lunch the night before, not only for convenience but because I just seem to be lacking the energy in the AM’s. OH and I'm down another pound.

day 5 & 6

friday was a pretty good day - day 5 that is - eggs, salad, cheese, celery/pb, etc. during the day. For supper I had three hard-boiled egg whites on the run, not the best but at least some protein before the movie where i had only a sf york.

today has been iffy. eggs for b-fast - normal - but lunch was not good. this afternoon i've been outside at a wedding so i haven't had time to eat properly - supper tonight will be iffy. probably a salad because i'm so hot and tired but i'm going to have to be careful because popcorn has been calling me. :(

e said:

no popcorn, eat cheese...

miss you lots.

10:18 PM

day 4

day 4 didn’t go to badly, but a moment of badness. We had our staff recess day and I completely forgot we had ordered the Italian meal to go with the gangster tour – so pasta, bread, more pasta. Ugh. At least there was some salad – ceasar and a green salad with ‘shrooms (YUCK!) and green beans. So I took as much ceasar as I could, picked out broccoli from the green ‘shroom salad and took the green beans. I tried to scrape off the dressing as much as I could and didn’t eat the croutons (thank goodness I don’t like those anyway). That helped but I know I got way more than I should have, and the beans must have been cooked in some sort of weird butter/oil thing because though the bean was crisp they were kinda slimy on the outside. I had brought along my cl and cheese for the bus ride. That helped and when I got back I had celery with pb. That was good and I got back on track after that – salad with egg whites, chicken feta and little dressing for supper. Then dc and rum at boom with the boys.

K said...

way to go, sb girl!!! i'm so proud of you. i have many such stories as you have from recess day. the thing that always struck me was that after it was over i felt so much better about myself for NOT partaking of the crappy stuff. and, i found that i didn't miss it once the moment was over. i'm an experience person, and always want to have the most of the moment. but, if it doesn't seem to matter fifteen minutes later, then i can do without and move on to the next day when i'm more in control. sounds like things are going okay. you can always call if you actually want to TALK about things.

1:31 PM

day 3

Yesterday went okay. i'm finding i'm not as hungry as usual but when i am i don't need bread or donuts or anything to fill me up. string cheese or even a few almonds can do the trick. i also figured out last night that i don't need to slather my celery with pb just to make it taste better - or taste at all - just a little bit on the tip for each big bite works great.

the only bad thing yesterday was drinking my 2 nalgene's in the AM then having my dc/splenda for the only thing in the afternoon AND missing an afternoon snack. i got home and i was starving - so the celery/pb thing and more cl helped. I waited an couple hours then had salad with chicken and feta - great supper! - then a sf creamsicle. The latter are really becoming my favorite thing lately. they give me the sweet i need but fill me up too. i should have waited a bit to eat it though because by 9 i was starting to feel the gnaw of hunger so i had a few peanuts - that might have been since i was preping everything for today.

Today will be interesting since we have the bus tours and then ITALIAN for lunch - crap. i wasn't thinking when i decided to start this week - oh well. We'll see how it goes!

day 2

yesterday went much better on sb. i think i controlled the caloric intake of the 'fun' foods a little better - less sf chocolate and jello. In fact, if I'm remembering correctly, I only had one piece of sf dkch and then the sf creamsicle last night. not bad.

this is an interesting eating plan - it's not really that different from what i had been doing but the lack of bread and fruit is strange. tonight may be a challenge if jay and i actually make it to dinner and tomorrow when we choir folk finally do go out after rehearsal.

but so far so good. i HAD to know this morning and so since the reset began last week monday, i am now down almost a full 6 pounds (2/10 off of a full 6 pounds - but who's counting, really). i probably shouldn't have weighed this morning but sometimes that little bit helps.

hey sme - aka k - just in case you read this one...can you send me an email with how you did during phase 1? just curious - i need something to base off. thanks girl.

day 1 - officially

last week was a reset week - water/juice on monday, add fruit on tuesday, add veggies on wednesday - then as i said in a previous blog i broke down and had some cheese wed. night. so k suggested i start SB on thursday. well, officially i start today, but i did begin to do some sb things this weekend (like bringing string cheese and SF chocolate to the movies) and, after my reset week (which i had lost 4 pounds by thursday doing the reset) i not only maintained that 4 pounds off but also lost another .8 of a pound. i broke my plateau weight that i have been trying to break for months. YAY!

so today is official. thank goodness my sme said i could still have rum and dc this week (even though the book says no) - we have choir rehearsal all week and that, of course, means nights out. And thank goodness i can keep drinking my cl. if i couldn't do that, i wouldn't be making it. this'll be good. i'm excited for this. yesiree bob, i'm getting my life back on track...