Thursday, February 02, 2006

Day 185-1

So Feb 1 marked 6 months exactly since I started SB. Interesting to see the changes from then til now. Back then I felt horribly fat and needed to make some changes. Today I just feel fat and still need to make changes.

Sad, I know…I’m so great at self-deprecation. But it’s really about perspectives. 6 months ago I knew I had to do something or I was going to really lose control of myself and I couldn’t let that happen. Now I look at me and realize that though a lot of the weight is gone, it’s been gone for awhile and I’m getting used to the ‘new’ me which is starting to look fat again.

Could be that I haven’t been running as much as I was so I’m not feeling how I should.
Could be that I’ve been eating/making too many cookies to really see anything good in me.
Could be that time of the month. God help the woman with PMS.

I have a few weeks til I hopefully go to Texas. A few measly weeks to get my ass in gear and get back on track.
It’s been 6 months…maybe it’s time for a re-ignition. I need a new goal and focus.

But what will that be?

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