Uffda. I haven’t been to the gym since Monday. This is so not good. And last night was HO’s last surprise retirement party at the Liffey with great appetizers and lots to drink. What a great night but oh so detrimental for the diet! And tonight is supper with IL, so no gym tonight either. Tomorrow is going to hurt.
I will say it’s funny – I was talking to JR last night and she was commenting on how she has seen me lose weight over the past few months and was feeling jealous (maybe?). So last night I looked in the mirror again and I just don’t see it. I think I’ve talked about this before but I wonder if I’ll ever see myself as thinner or will I always be fat in my eyes. I think SK has it right here (fourth paragraph especially). Maybe someday my brain will catch up with my body, but right now it’s so not happening. SO I just smile and nod when people tell me I look thinner, and I chuckle as I pull my size 10 pants around and fold the waistband over knowing I could go smaller but also feeling fearful of going and actually buying new pants for fear that I will balloon up again and the smaller size will just hang in my closet like the skirts I bought years ago (which I can fit into now but have no reason to ever wear them).
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